seanblog: "Eric" and Blake the Captain of the Wrestling team" by Seanbateman9

blog Entry XXX - Adults Only !!!

The Captain of the Wrestling Team...
High school...
Blake...
1980
a lazy - hot july afternoon...
i was detoxoing from cocaine and last nights alcohol binge on the high school campus football field late at night -- a six pack of beer - and drinking with the captain of the wrestling team...
we were smashed...

it started with a look in his eyes...
then he started laughing...
and standing above me...
as i lay on the grass laughing also...
then he became somewhat serious and kinda -- well his eyes changed...became warm...in a different way...

he took in a deep breath...and then became playful again..
he sat on my stomache, and pinned my wrists down - to the grass, then he looked into my eyes...
and then - oh my god...yeah...
he kissed me...
and he kissed me harder and he didn't stop...
and i kissed him back >>>
and as he kissed me he began to grind his hips into mine...
holding my wrists down...getting kissed by the campus stud...my mind was blown -- totally--
his rough - young beard against mine...
rubbing his face against mine - along my neck and then moving his lips back to mine...
the smell of him...at last - yes!
moaning - on top of me...and grinding his hips...
this low - beautiful moan...from deep - deep inside...and then the kiss became very tender...like he knew this was our chance - nobody was there to stop us...
we both wanted the same thing...
and then a surreal - almost dream-like -- unreality
took over...
the warmth of the night - the moon above...
two hard - hard throbbing cocks and two young guys ready to vent a pressure and undertow that had been suppressed - pushed down --- closeted - pushed away - for years...
but now here it was - from both sides...
two male energies - meeting - merging...
hard, soft and rough: pure -
pure heat...pure lust and maybe even love...
almost in slow motion - it began to unfold... the dream...
A dream - that I had dreamt of many times since I first saw him - fisrt saw Blake...
blake the all star...
hieght - 5'10
weight - a muscled 165 pounds with an emphasis on his fine almost over-built chest...lightly sprinkled with a tuft of fine masculine hair in the center...
a flash of perfect white teeth...
beautiful light green eyes...
the black close crop-haircut that all wrestlers on the high school team had to have...quasi-Marine-style...that seemed to catch the sun and shine at the right angle...
his fine olive skin...
but all of that was not the best part about Blake..
the way he moved his hips when he walked - his kind of roundish full sexy butt -- No - nor even yeah - what appeared..atleast in the showers -- to be a truly nice sized cock with low hanging balls...the way he carried himself...at times sporting the devils grin...when he was deep in thought -- which would then turn to a dopey smile and then a frown of anger - the few times he caught me looking at him in the cafeteria...while he ate lunch alone...cramming for a test...
the way his eyes turned soft a few other times when he watched the other wrestlers push around a few freshmen and he would break it up and then look at you - with kindness...like he was sorry - it all happened...
all of this but more than this -- it was his smile that for me lit up the entire world...after he won a match - gave the right answer in class...or was just walking home telling a sports story and talking about the game...
His smile...his eyes - all together -- so, so beautiful...
youd simply fall, forever -- forever and ever in love with him...
the dream of Blake...

My dream...
in the back of my mind...
I always imagined him on top of me -
maybe fucking me - fucking my hole...
and yeah kissing...
him telling me how much he liked me...
there was always kissing...me kissing him..
him kissing me --
us kissing together --
like we cherished each other...
kissing and laughing...or wrestling around...
something like that -
a haze of his breath on mine - the smell of him - the sound of his laughter...
the images of him in the showers...naked - the cool - warm water rolling over him and the cocky way he strutted around...
and then became totally self confidant and then self - conciouss - and then quiet...in the locker room...when he became aware of where he was...
>>>>
aching for him...in the dream or watching him in the shower after practice but pretending not to notice:
taking those images -- All of them :
and weaving them into a dream..my dream...yeah - the dream and ache of Blake...
any time anyone said his name -
I fell into a hope and sadness and pain and joy...
and now -
there he was...
on top of me -
under a sky full of stars - and the moon almost full..
a warm summers night...a few beers and half a pint of Schnapps...there he was --
on top of me - kissing me and me kissing back...
heat building...releasing - mingling...stoking...fire - heat -- fire - burning...
suddenly -
he took one hand - and
then slowly - yeah
he slowly -- as if to say "Yes..."
he brought my hand to his crotch...
and rested it there...
and yes -- his dick was hard
ringing hard -- rock -- hard...hard...
aching -
he nodded - and quietly met my eyes and we both froze
yeah ...the moment of truth...for us both...
and then - the gates of light and lust and virility and pain and heat exploded - and blew open...
pause...
a shooting star goes by...

as fast as I could I undid the fly to his jeans and ran my hand over the length and girth of his piece - it was so fucking nice -- !! it curved off to the right and as I slide down the waste band of his breifs - and saw the head - my mouth watering to taste it - a long ooze of pre-cum appeared - the semll and heat of his crotch wafting toward me like the greatest cologne I had ever smelled...
pure -- blake...the stud...
the boy - the man - the child - the star...
the bringer of my dreams...
the head of his cock -- his hard cock -- now next to my mouth - and him wanting me to taste it --
and then yeah I brought his waist to mine and bent my head forward and lapped my tongue to that pearly awesome -
fluid, at the tip of his piss slit...
and took it in...
salty - sweet - nice - his essence...
I paused - maybe to savor it - allow it to roll onto my tongue...almost ponder that it came from his body - deep within his balls - the center of him...
I rested my cheek onto his lower stoamche for just a breif moment like i just wanted to stay there forever...and I think he did also - and then he lightly touched the top of my head...and bent closer to breathe in the smell of my hair and then he kissed the top of my head...and then it happened...
I opened my mouth -
and then I tasted the head...of Blake's cock---
and the head went beyond my lips...
and then the entire shaft - went into my mouth -
and then deep into my throat...
tasting Blake - my first cock -
the first cock...
Blake's cock -- >>>> YES!
the ache in my throat - now released...

>>>>years of wanting to do this - were now vanishing...
seeing guys and thinking about going down on them - a knot - always there - aching to suck some studs cock that you saw in the park and he would look at you like he wanted it and you wanted it but you never knew what to do about it-- the ache...
in the lockeroom showers or just walking down the street and trying not to acknowledge the total hotty you just saw because it was not safe...
you could get beat up - called the town fag...or even worse -- bashed...
all of that went through my mind...but now on the football field at 2am...nobody could stop either of us...
the world was asleep and would never find out...

Blake moaning above me - obviously liking the feeling of having his dick sucked and sucked by a guy...
I wanted to make sure that he totally dug it -
and never forgot this night - and me and us doing everything...
and then suddenly fast and quick -- I felt the ache in my own cock - and realized that Blake was tearing open my fly and pulling my dick out of my pants...
pulling down the waistband of my boxers and gripping his strong hand around the burning base of my shaft...close to my balls...
he lightly and gently and precisly slid his finger along the under - crack of my hole..behind my balls and then without any warning fingered my hole...
holy shit !
was he gonna fuck me ??

it was all so fast...and furious and wonderful and firghtning at the same time...
and it all felt so right...like god was watching and didnt care...maybe that God wanted this to happen...
like heaven...?
like angels - made it happen..
like in my secret prayers - the prayers of my heart - and love for and of Blake...
yeah fuck yeah - it was...a dream come true...def...

>>>Blake fingering my asshole and opening up a new world of sensations in my mind and body...
waves and waves - with the pain and joy that began...

Blake fingering my hole -- riding my mouth and thrusting his shaft down further into my throat - face fucking me - holding my head...bucking around...

I thought to myself.."Is he gonna fuck me now...??"
but he did'nt...
instead....
yep....he began to push my pants down to my ankles - and suddenly I felt the cool of the grass on my butt - and then somehow Blake managed to pull his pants down and then he pulled his wet cock out of my mouth and kissed me again --
return his mouth to mine and slowly began to move the head of my cock toward his butt-hole...
oh my god - I couldnt believe it - The captain of the wrestling team was working the head of my hard cock into his hot wrestler-boy tight -- butt hole - --
almost by instinct - it began to snake up - into his ass - sweaty and warm and then yeah - I looked at him - to ask - to know if he had even done this before - and he whispered...
"I want to..."
and then I was inside him...
yeah that was allI needed to hear...
I bucked my hips upward...yeah and then I took control of the situation - somehow-- I rolled over -- still inside of him...almost like the prefect wrestlers move - a duble reversal...and then I was on top...
and he relaxed...how many times had he been on a wrestling matt -- in this same position - and fighting to get out of it ??
but not this time...he relaxed and allowed me to enter him deeper...and I pressed my chest hard into his - and became very wise and knwoing and bit his lips and looked into his eyes - like "I'am gonna take care of it all...my bro..."
and he realxed into it - and I knew this was the real sitaution - he really wanted so badly to be taken and get fucked and be made love to...he relaxed and his asshole opened perefectly to recieive my thiick 8 inch pole...
and yeah he wrapped his strong powerful thighs around me and then it occurred to me - I dared to dream that Blake had thought of doing this before - it was clear -
>>>>his dream was comming true was well...

slowly Blake accepted more and more of me into his hole... bucking and riding --
yeah -
I was fucking him...slow and nice..
deep and pure and raw...and nice...
our movements were perfect and fell into a true rythmmm
cock to ass and mouth to mouth: body to body and heart to heart...
we were truly making love now - not just two dumb jocks in a circle jerk...
No - this was a whole nother level that until now I could have only guessed at..but it was happening none the less - making love...
on the grass...under the stars, in front of god --- in front of jesus...
the all - star captain of the wrestling team...the prom king....in my arms, getting my dick up his ass ...and jerking off and kissing me all the way...to heaven...
the sweat from his chest mixing with mine - our fluids mixing - our tongues and bodies - becoming - making us one...
and then
before we knew it...
the moon - the stars and the alcohol and everything blurred- and it all became so powerful and overwhelming and he knew and I knew - and then faintly - softly -- sweetly:
as if to give permission for me to do it - Blake nodded and said a quiet -- "Yes...."
and then
I released a warm load into his ass...

like a giant knot - being untied...and him gratfully - ..accpeting it all.. every drop...
masculine and pure and full of light...
full of my light...
as another stream of my fine hot cum flew upwards deep - deep into Blake..
and us locking mouths and moaning together...cheek to cheek his smell - and my smell..mixing..
and our moans..
clean and pure: it all felt so right...
his release --
my release...and
the smell of sexy funk...suddenly filled the air --
around us
almost like a locker room...with faint dabs of cologne....
moisture - jockstraps,
sweaty socks...
of guys and testoserone...
yeah the smell of love...
kind of encrilced us....and
mingled with the grass - and sky above --
Blake and I --- bonded together forever...
my cock still oozing the last drops of cum into his fine atheletic ass...
and then just holding--
his arms around me....kissing my acheek...
he holding me and me hoding him...
we--- made love togther...
I made love to him...
I shot a load of my essence into him...and he took it in...
the dream came true..
then finally - it was calm....
calm...

i looked down and held him tight - and kissed his cheek so gently - almost drawing tears into my eyes - because of how beautiful it all was - and he was...
listening to his slow sexy moaning in my ear -
and then kissing him one more time....
and then that was it -- it was all gone -
everything - coated in warmth
and then I guess-- I lost conciousness...

we both passed out...
me on top of him...
yeah fuck yeah -
me and Blake...sleeping under the stars...
this was how it should be - this is a world of good and God...
Blake - a guy like Blake - next to me - I made him happy...
he made my dreams come true...
his varsity jacket draped over both of us as a kind of blanket...
cheek to cheek...
amen.
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the next morning we were awakened by the summer session's girls soccer team coming onto the field to practice...
my pants down around my ankles...blake was laying next to me....
empty "miller" bottles scattered around laying on the grass...
the sun glaring down --
I saw the coach first but Blake was still a sleep...

all of a sudden waking up and looking up at the coach...and then seeing Blake...his fine furry butt and beautiful cock -- he had a morning hard-on...
hard in the afternoon day sun --
looking into his eyes and then realizing that we were not alone...
that his johnson was standing straight up in all it's glory kinda flapping in the air, and that dumb - sexy smile on his mug that made everyone fall in love with him, his lazy bedroom eyes, gazing into mine - as he began to grin, thinking for a second that we were still alone...
and about to grin, >>>>>but.........
the coach stepped in closer...

Blake began to open his eyes:
remembering the night before -- he reached over to kiss me....and pull his varsity jacket tighter around us...all in the same motion, his mouth about to grace mine...his lips just grazing mine, and then his head turned....to look upward....
and then whamm -- absolute panic....
"oh my god!!!!!"
we both looked up...the female soccor coach stepped over us both and frowned..."Hmmmm..."she muttered, surverying Blakes hard bone and my butt, as I was laying on my stomache, without my pants on, standing right over us....
my pants were about six feet away on the grass, as well as my boxers and one of my boots, the other one was still on...
"Holy shit!!!!" Mrs Cavanuagh!! whats she doing here??"
blake belted out to me....
then he just yelled...."Fuck! shit-- I'am ---- outta here..."
pulled his pants on and ran home.....

>>>>>>>>>>>>
the both of us -- hung-over to shit and both knowing that now, the entire school would know what happened....
blake moved fast and quick--- pulled on his pants - left his t-shirt laying there beside me and ran....away-----
fast>>>>
just ran away...his body a small dot on the horizon before i knew it....and then disappeared....

"Mrs. Cavanugh...I ah, it was ah -- we -- were ah---"
i kinda fumbled for an explanation and my pants at the time time, i grabbed blake's T-shirt and held it in fronot of my crotch and kinda hunched over, looking into her eyes and knowing there was nothing to explain or say....but then blurted out....
"Its ah -- it's not -- it's not,>>>>>
how it looks....I swear -- really..."
I held blake's t-shirt tight -- covering my dick and tryong to bend over to grab my boxers and pants...and also trying to cover my butt - ah butthole -- while doing it....
then i slipped on my boxers and bolted....and just fucking ran -- outta sight....into the parking lot and got into my pick up truck and drove away....
holy shit -- i just had my honeymoon - kinda -- or something and now i was gonna get a divorce... I knew i'd never really, ever talk to blake again....
we both knew that we were toast...totally found out...that we were butt-fucking fags....
our lives would never be the same...
and they weren't...
blake was a senior and....
>>>>>>>


>>> blog entry - Excerpts from "Sean's Bedtime Stories..."

This blog is rated XXX - Adults only...



erik
>>
yeah --
maybe it's becuz i start shaking every time i look into your eyes...
or
the fact that I don't even know you and i can't stand to be away from you...
i want to chain you to the floor so youll never get away -- never again give that cum of urs to anyone but me --
you make me shake inside and i cant talk -
is that love or fear ?
can u love me or do you just love my h**e ??
will u let me handcuff you and blindfold u and take my cock just the way i like it ? >>>>get on ur knees like daddys little cocksucker and service me ??
and then make me do all the same for you ?
-- i never want to forget the look in ur eyes - when u filled my hole full of cream and then licked it out - lapped it out of my hole and then looked into my eyes and kissed me hard and soft all at once --
i want you to come over here with ripe funky pits and make me smell them -- and make me smell your sweaty boots and socks --
and fuc me with ur armpit in my face --
i think i would give you my blood if u needed it...
i would buy you what ever you wanted jus to have the priveledge of looking into your eyes when i woke up >>>
the truth---
i loved u even before i met you -- then i saw u and i knew
i knew you were the one --

>>> maybe becuz you came to my house at nine-thirty in the morning and just blew in and wuz like, "take off those boxers -- now..."

or maybe b-cuz you fucked me so nice and when it got too intense and i tried to pull your dick out of my ass and you were like --
"no -- No way -- Don't pull away from me...."
and wouldn't let me do it and then fucked me ever harder...

or what happened inside of me when we kissed and how you kissed me back -- kinda hard and pushing me onto the bed -- and holding me down like you couldn't get enuff...
erik -- erik Erik....
or maybe
It's just the feeling around you that i feel -
like the whole fucking world is going to explode and the ground is gonna open at any minute -- and i don't care -- and i jus see ur smile and wanna be in ur arms...
and i will want you -- always...
and i will long for you always --

more at my blog - >>>>

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
the Sean Bateman SEx diaries...
(the summer series)
is happening this summer....

chk back for updates - a new story - once a week...
I promise....All true - live from the streets and bedrooms -- backrooms and alleyways....of NYC...
not to mention the porn shops...>>
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12 Jul 2008, 14:53
You: pls cum back to nyc --

:)

i need to have that awesome cock bro --- i hav to hav it

12 Jul 2008, 14:54
hngsk8bdr: long time no see, sex machine. i'd love to give it to you bud. every fat fucking inch.

12 Jul 2008, 14:57
You: i dream about it and your funk...id like to tongue your hole....lick your cock and get fucked by it -

have you ride me around....and blo -
so youd be inside of me ---always.....

12 Jul 2008, 14:59
hngsk8bdr: bury this flared knob just as deep as it will go, punched up deep past that second ring, gettin ready to spit right into your gut. make sure you'll have it inside of you, warm and thick, for a good long while.

12 Jul 2008, 15:01
You: i worship your studliness bro -
makes my hole ache....for you ...

12 Jul 2008, 15:07
hngsk8bdr: abuse that hot fuck hole of yours just so i know you'll be thinkin bout me when its still sore to sit on the next day

12 Jul 2008, 15:12
You: i love you
you get me so hard it hurts.....

i have to go but now today
ill think of you and finger my ass.....and spank one off in your honor - ill get some facelless guy to fuk me and think of you...
wish it was you.....

let it be you...
until then

SB

12 Jul 2008, 15:13
hngsk8bdr: take it easy, sean. i'll find some hot beefy ass boy to pound, close my eyes and fuck him till he whimpers, imagining it's your sweet ass i'm breeding.

13 Jul 2008, 03:09
hngsk8bdr: nuts are a lil lighter now. good thing you're not here. would take me twice as long to fuck you... that'd be just terrible, wouldn't it?


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blue tuesday -- (posted on Seans dreamy sexxx blog 2-08
deep deep into sexual melancholy...

christopher...

sitting here -- thinking of you -- and doing my best to pull someone -- you another guy into my bed today or my life...
manhunt- website --

i tell EVTOP
">>>look --i want to wrap my hole around your cock --
you liked to get fucked ?
you want some of my cream??
i want to get fucked and suck cock -- get over here -
i wanna feel you squirt your jizz down my throat or up my ass..."
yes -- e mail sent -
but iam thinking of you --
another coast away....
wondering what you smell like or the heaven it would be to touch your lips or put my nose -- to your armpits -- and breathe in your smell --
perhaps lay my head -- down on your hard cock --
just rest there -- and gently kiss the shaft...of what i imagine to be such a beautiful piece --
yeah
yes...thats what I'am dreaming of today---right now -- you - me --

lost forever in the bed of lust and blue and melancholy and dreams...
sweet gay -- queer dreams of you and for you --
inspiring me to write and tell my stories - as if -- yes
I'am open again to the world -- because of you --
and yes
my heart-sick -- sick-closed off pain sick -- sickness
melts away in your presence...
maybe your too wise - for me -- or too gentle -
i can not say -- 5000 miles away from me --
but id like to know -- like to feel you maybe -- grinding above me as i place my tongue to your hole and rest it there -- tasting your hole --
kinda savoring - the cheeks of your ass....
and the power and secrets of you -- but only the ones youd like me to know...
every man - all of them taste different -
act different
different chemicals of sweat and purity and light -- and need and wanting and grace and masculinity and the sun --
the night
all coming together --
and you are new -- in my thoughts -- wondering -- how fresh you would be to me -- like going on forever like the warm wet streets of a golden city -- filled with love - and green and skies and rain and fucking holding you close and just being inside you -- resting there --
knowing you -- kising you --
you showing me all the needs you have --
and i saying -- and being powerful enough to rescue you from all of them - being able to fullfill your wants and needs and waking you up in the morning with a freshly made coffee - and fucking your hole again
- and making love -- if thats what you wanted -- or massaging you -- or kissing you befor you go off to work for your day...
maybe youd give me your load down my throat in the kitchen -- before you showered -- the night sweat of your balls like a cologne i cant get enough of ....which is unique only to you -- which i would crave all my days...and think to myself after the door closed and you had gone....
that i regret the minutes when we are apart...
and that i can't wait for your return...
yes all this --
and also the dream of me falling steadfast a sleep -- while perhaps you read or watch telelvision ....
and myself like a puppy that you love and/or care for --
resting my head gently upon your stomache and looking up to you -- and you stroking my hair and i falling in to bliss...
peaceful and free and safe and warm and comfortable and protected by you and your eyes....
and the rest of my days -- it could be like that for us ...

that a dream could come true - and the tired -- insane world would leave us alone to love one another...

it could be like that -- with you christopher....
id like that --
if it could be -- everynight - dreams of love and the golden bed -- of solitude -- of peace and warmth and light and love....
yeah i wanna try again - ill be open again...
my heart can mend again...
i can forgive again....
Spring...i think has made me insane again...
i dont know...
theres a pain or a birth -- and a birth of light -- and you are in front of it -- telling me to send it out and release it to the world ...
that i did a good job and that you understand...
yeah - id hope for everything with you -- and especially that youd undestand....
that youd know my value --
that youd treasure me and i the same to you --
isnt that the best two people can have -??
that they cherish the days together and are glad
that they found one another -- ?
id like to have that -- maybe yes -- with you --
that youd understand and love me even for my horrible twists and defects...and likewise i could do the same for you --
because we agreed to stick it out and stay --
no matter what for each other --
and i think -- i know you would --

my wish -- for you --for me
for us --
that you claim me as yours and yours alone -- and
that i may do the same with you and for you --
that i become yours - only --
and that you know this to be true -- and our truth -
together -- that i look into your eyes and feel security and warmth --
the warmth of your kindess and knowing...and i promise to give you the same -- always -- i promise that -- i swear that --
that there is no doubt that iam the guy for you and there really could never be another one in this lifetime --
and i the same to you and for you -- bound by an oath -- privately and publicly -- swearing and knowing to melt into one another alone at the end of the day...
yes one yet seperate....
one as a team and partners - yet having indivual identites and lives --
and I'd support you in whatever your hopes and dreams and desires are --
even if they are to perhaps explore another guy --
i think id feel safe to let you do that as long as you came back to me --
perhaps renewed and reassured - then that would be fine --
i could agree to that - i would never want you to be or feel trapped --
quite the opposite -- id want you to feel free --
safe -- together but independant to do what you need to do--
yeah -- its something like that -- thats my idea -- that at night i know id get into bed and commit the most sacred act -- i could -- laying down and falling a sleep into your arms -- or you into mine....
resting -- together -- in safety --
yeah -- like that --


heat and warmth -- all for you -- into you as you read this -- let my words be something good to you -- for you -- for hope and light -- this is my wish for you today...
i rise to the mount olympus -- and ask zues to bless us - and our union....
forever in peace and love --
i'll claim you - say the word - >>>>
but you likewise have to claim me -

yes --??

love always
Sean...