seanblog: "Light a Candle" by SeanBateman9

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seanbateman9

Godless sexual deviant or Gay messiah?
My private pics are all unlocked -- >>>>
I only ask one thing - please read my profile --
before you send me an e mail asking me something thats all ready listed --- thnkxx love Sean
ok then...


Welcome...
Closer...

"You get me closer to God..."
Sean here...


A "Prayer for the Departed..."


Hey there - thanks for the visit to my page here and sexual cyber space...
I'am all about the nasty and the "Fuck Yeah!" yep sure am --
but before you open that door and descend here -
(with me) into my sexual homo-fest of denziens...
and night crawlers...
and go into the undergound of lust...
I want to tell you something...

I want to share something cool with you that happened to me recently...
I dig candlelight...

As I lit a candle in my home...recently
I got a streak of inspiration...
voices of angesls...
Gay angels - maybe...
the dearly departed ? spoke:
It came to me to say this prayer...
(As I lit the candle...)

""This candle is a light...
and a symbol of love and peace and all good things to all souls - my queer brothers and sisters - who died from fear...
(to all the spirits) - who commited suicide...in this life ...becasue they were gay...
>>>To all the people that ever got gay bashed...
and of course to those who passed...
because of the gay holocaust...
(the gay holocaust - that happened in the late 80s and early nineties...due to meds overdosing and poisoning from toxic meds...AZT and DDI..."

prayer continues..
"Whatever I do in my life I will remember you and also know that you are on the other side to guide me and help me - your power and protection and love are mine...
I wish you love and light and pray that you guide me and keep me safe..."


((the holocaust...))
us older guys are stunned
the younger guys perhaps dont know the history
or perhaps they do and believe that is their fate or what they deserve...
well listen up !
the fear in this world does not belong to us...and it doesnt belong to you - dont ever soak it up or ingest it or internalize it...
repel it - it is toxic...deeply - deeply toxic...
and it should never harm us...again,
ever again...
consider that wherever you are or may be - you deserve to live in safety and peace....
and if someone sends you hate -
you just send it right back..
with a note - that says -
"It doesnt belong to me and never will..."

prayer continues...
"I pray to send love to all the people who have been harmed...
hurt or died from homophobia....
it is because of you that I enjoy all the wonderful -
cool things about being gay and queer and homo...
homo-empowered...so thanks - to all the spirits helping me here in this world...who either passed before me or went before their time....
to make this world a better place and an easier place for me...
thank you...
Amen..."

try this -- @ home once a week...
Light a candle for the departed...
I'am doing the same...
it is very healing -- for strength and love and peace...
consider all who have gone before you as I did and all who will come after us...
community is not about being predatory - it's about co-existing...
protecting each other...
Its about Co-union or communion...


tell me the miracles and results you have...
heal your soul and protect yourself and others like us...
amen...
theres my rant...
much love Sean


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From: seanbateman9
Subject: Re: nice shower curtain
Date: Tue Aug 28, 2007 12:32 PM

ok bro we have to get together - its a must -
iam high just thinking about your hot raw -- dick sliding into my hole...

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my cell mate is this big blonde dude
bout 6 foot four - white dude -- got this major uncut white dong
makes me suck it when the lights go out all the time -- sometimes iam a sleep and i feel that fat cockhead pushing against my hole -- and realized he climbed into my bunk -- then he says somehing taking my cock man -- and then sometimes he kisses me when he fucks me but only once in awhile
he shots his load up my ass so it wont end up on the sheets and stain them and then all the bros would know we were doing it -- its a scret even though this other guy is kinda jealous and suspect were ah like cell mate -- lovers --

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my boxers shorts -- causual friday... sept 06

some random thoughts...

i like sitting around the house in my boxer-shorts makes me feel kinda-hetero -- or something...
like some young-ish hot straight guy -- kinda like:
the ashtrays are full -- the kegger party was last night...
my boxers kinda smell like a locker room...or something..like sweaty socks...and i fumble around to find a pack of marlboros...and spark one up...
part of me is still living at the franternity house...

i got laid...well i think i did or maybe i fucked my fraterntiy brother in my ah sleep- while we -- were ah drunk -- ah i think i kissed -- while i got fucked...or ah fucked him...ah you know what...i really dont remember...i was so drunk...ahhh fuk-
yeah..
ah fuck yeah..those were the days...

manhattan land of the zombies: caffiene, downers, caffiene, downers, caffiene, viagra, caffiene, melancholy, caffiene - sugar- depression...caffience - nicotien...

anyday that you dont have hemmoroids sp? is a good day -- trust me...on that one..

sharks: did u know that sharks cant sleep...?
thats right, they have to swimm 24 hours a day, or they will die...talk about bad karma...
sharks have two sets of teeth, and when they go to bite-- eat their prey, there jaw -- jaws? push out from their face...face? do sharks have faces?
or do they just have like a really big nose and a mouth ?
kind of - no totally reminds me of a few assistant restaurant managers ive had the pleasure to suffer their abuse --
i've been a waiter...ok? that was bad...i moved into bartending that was better..but thank god i was never the assistant -- ah restuarant manager...
talk about being the "middle child..." --
talk about "bad karma..."
(if you are an assistant-restaurant manager...and your reading this -- my only advice to you is: get out while you can...just get the fuck out bro...jump out of the shark pool before the waiters burn black candles in your name or the owner dices you to shreds...
or the "real" manager...ah tries to get you fired...and gets drunk and says..again -- it was all your fault...yeah just get the hell out!))
does it really surprise anyone that it's always the assistant restaurant managers that embezzle the days -- nights tips - and then disappear?
ah -- if youve spent five minutes in a restaurant on the other side of the floor...the one where you kiss a person's ass that in "real life" youd never give the time of day to...for like what 78cents -- half of it in pennies... under the coffee cups...ah -- more coffee and ah more sweet and low and ah more ice water -- with no ice, and ah lemon...ah and the dessert menu and thats lovely-- ah fine - thanks - thats lovely ah here ya go ah cheers...ta-- fine thanks...cheers...ah, well why should i tip ?
I'am only visiting this country anyway...and ah,
well you "Americans..." are all about the money - arent you? ah cheers..luv...white wine spritzer....with some ah--basil on the side -- ((pronounced baaaa-zil - not BA-sil...))
right and something with some vanilla icing would be great...ta...and a coffee like they have in france....
right -- thats great thankxx -- cheers...

fine thanks...

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theres no symbol on the lap top key board to hit for a symbol of cents... right ?

gay people - are not "real" people...
there are laws against them and hell they cant even get married...they aren't even allowed to try for "true love" in the love "lottery pool" like the heteros...atleast the heteros get a shot at it --
at winning...or the illusion of it - or the idea of rommance...or something...before the "messy divorce"
no -- gay people are not real...
were just the background filler for the heteros and there war -games and reindeer games...eventhough we do their hair - their lighting and their make-up and cater their dinner parties..and arrrange their flowers and...add to the list...
were like the illegal aliens-- of society...eventhough we were born here...

the sharks....

i woke up today -- chain smoking...kind of like the helena bohnam carter - character in the film:
"The fight club..."
"Marla...Singer..."

--ok -- lets move forward...??

yeah i think i woke up hungover to shit.....
and my hair was messed up eventhough its a marine crop hair-do...what a site...a kind of GI Joe in my boxers and my dick was...
yeah kinda stciky from being up my fraternity brothers ass last night...who in a few years will get married and ah over pay the pool boy and ah yeah -- get caught --
and then get a rather..."messy divorce..."

my balls hurt ((from jerking off - ))
and my muscles ache....((from working out))
and my heart hurts...((from going inside))
and my ears sting from listening to bullshit...
my only thought right now --
"kill your television" -- at all costs -- whatever you do
"kill your television..." before it kills you --
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I drink iced tea and go online....

by SeanB
2008